The words are not mine. I only wish I could write like this.
They are what I found in cyberspace, with no named author who I could credit.
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I am not who you think I should be, want me to be, see me becoming
I am not your possession, your entitlement, your destiny
I am not the person I used to be.
I am living and breathing but I am not defined by your words and your actions.
You cannot define who I am, you cannot define my life for me
You cannot renegotiate who you think I am, who you want me to be
I am not your perception of me, I am not defined by your understanding or memory of me
You cannot tell me where to go, what to think, who to become, what to think
I do as I want, when I want it, as long as I want it.
I will not be defined by your construction of me.
I will not be defined by your actions and words towards me
I am not female. I am not south asian. I am me first.
You may not impose your feelings on me
Treat me improperly
You may not judge me and disrespect me
I will not be at the brunt of your hypocrisies
Of your lies and false promises
I will not be suffocated by your agency
Your ability to seize my opportunities
Because you may have the power the control
You may seek every opportunity and every breath
But my mind is all my own
You cannot entrap my mind with your words
You cannot entrap the very essence of me
Living breathing flowing freely mysteriously flowing everywhere, uncontrollably flowing all of me everywhere, out towards the universe and I am overcome by me the wholeness the fullness that is me, the paradox that is me, the contradiction that is me
The beauty the ugliness the bitterness the sweetness the completeness which is me
Not who you see me as
Not who you think I ought to be and should become
Not what you think I like
What my desires are
But who I am fundamentally
I am no woman
I am not a south asian
I am me and that is fundamental outside of the cultural and gendered identity imposed upon me
Outside my skin crawling everywhere seeping out oozing out into the minds into the universe
You cannot contain me through the crevices of my female body
You cannot hold me hostage by the color of my skin
Because we all have skin and they are all the same
The blood which runs through our veins
The tears which break our hearts
The same warm tears gushing down
Gushing down so fast
With all of me
But I do not give up
I am not who you want me to be
Who you see me as who you define me to be
I am not your expectations
I will not be defined by the reflection in the mirror when skin deep appearance are never to be trusted
What is true lies deep within our souls, in our blood and in our bones
Faces are empty crevices, empty holes and hypocrisies
Faces are lies, lies told through the color of skin
Through the color, color, creed, nationality
What divides us over and over again
Time and time again we fight
Fight over religion
Fight over color
Fight over class
When will this fight be over
I will not be defined by you
I will not be the image you potray of me
You are able to mutilate my body
But my mind is my own
My very own mind that runs freely despite your entrapment
Despite the commercial imposition you have set upon our world
I will not be defined by you
My curves will not compromise because you do not see them as beautiful
My curves are my own and I love them
Every each crevice, every inch, every nook
Every unexercised, ungymed part of my body
Because I refuse to readjust myself to fit who you want me to be
I know I am beautiful and quite frankly I will not have you tell me otherwise
And the beauty has nothing to do with the way I look, it is within me it is within us all.
But there is something wrong with a world which makes so many of us feel ugly,
Makes us hate the very reflections of us which reflect to us our vanity
So we buy products to cover shit up
And wear cologne and perfume to smell nice and all.
When under the covers, under the make up
Behind the gym memberships where does the truth lie
Who can explain the state of world where one part of the world bodies are dieing and being mutilated while in another part bodies are laid down but it is for the purposes of tanning
How can we be blinded by our own destruction
How can we not feel the pain for our very own brothers sisters mothers fathers lovers and friends
When did other countries become foreigners and enemies
So I will not let you define me
I wont ever be who you want me to be
I will not conform to your standards of beauty
Because I don’t want to be skinny and emaciated
You can keep your plastic surgery and hair extensions
I am going to be me and all that I am
I will not be who you want me to be
You have set up capitalism to entrap us all
Suffocated us and enchained us to dollar bills as if they were the end all be all
As if they were the salvation to what,
A heaven for people who are only Christian for namesake
What have we become
Are we empty bodies roaming from 9 to 5
For what really
For that pay check at the end of the month
For that beemer for that Gucci dress for that benz
When it entraps us all
Further and further we get entrapped in the claws of capitalism
And we are suffocating but we ourselves do not know we are suffocating
The walls are coming down upon us and we are stuck
Here we are
We have a house a mortgage to pay,
Kids to send to school
They need their cell phones, ipods and laptons
So the bills go on
And the slavery continues
While some people are not even fortunate to experience this type of slavery experience a worse types
Our brothers and sisters who are incarcerated
Locked up in prison isolated
Who ever thought prisons would be a good idea
A place of suffocation
And forever they are imprisoned
Even when the metal bars in front of them open, they are imprisoned
No jobs no opportunities and back to the same lack of opportunity which put them there in the first place
And so the cycle continues and racial profiling continues
Why is there so much hate and distrust of our communities
Of our own brothers and sisters
Why did color creed and nationality become everything
Do we not feel the same pain when our family is ill or in pain
Then why do we stop these emotions for our blood relations for people of our color
Because we are black, white, Indian, native American?
No, we are human first
Why do so many of us forget humanity
Forget that lives are suffocating
Dieing
Dieing endless
Endless death and destruction
While people watch American idols, bachelor, and day time television
People are being slaughtered murdered raped
The genocide of the mind
The genocide of native Americans, of African Americans of Chinese Americans
Why have we forgotten the history or perhaps we have forgotten because the stories never got told
The stories which would send chills down our backs
How great America could it be
Could we have raped and pillaged too?
But we did rape and pillage and we continue doing so
Change starts from home and it starts with aknowledgement
When will native Americans get a proper apology for the genocide which was done upon them
Who has the answers and who has say
I will not be defined by you
I will not be silenced
I have a voice and I will speak for those who cannot
Write for those who are not able
I am tired of being suffocated in lies and corruption of a material world which pulls me in yet I struggle to free myself
Liberate myself
My body my life entrapped
Yet my mind is free
It roams all around the world and it sees everyone like family
You are my own
Every one of you
Whether you hate me or love me
I consider you my own
We are human first
Human is what I am
I am not south asian
I am not woman
I am human
The very blood running through my veins, the sweat which drips on the forehead, the tears which seep silently down my eyes when I think of the atrocities which have been committed in the past and are being committed now
Sometimes I do not know how we exist
In our bubbles
Perfect little bubbles with starbucks and express
With our university educations and laptops everywhere
I am not who you want me to be
I will not be defined by you
Not now not ever
Most of all,
I will not be silenced
You may entrap my body
But you cannot take my mind
For my mind is free to roam the universe and it shall do so time and time again screaming in agony.
We are all human. We are all human. We exist. All of us. We are all human. All in suffering.. all in pain. The suffering of every child, woman, man, is my suffering, the alleviation of this suffering is my calling.
The People's Parliament 
Sumo Piar
January 30, 2010
We are all human. We exist.
We may look Kralan or Japanese.
We enter. We exist. We exit.
alipyip
January 30, 2010
In Oct 2008, the Herald published a prayer in their editorial that is related to the Permatang Pauh by election as well had a supportive write-up on Anwar Ibrahim. The government took offence of the publication as it feels the publication may have an impact on the election result. From then onwards The Herald was under continuous surveillance and its publication it was suspended. The ground of suspension includes issues related to the use of the term Allah which has been used without any problems previously.
RPK said
January 31, 2010
“We have to start talking about The New Order. And to achieve The New Order we need the Members of Parliament and State Assemblypersons to be people of a higher moral fibre.” Talking about the new order.
Samuel Goh Kim Eng
January 31, 2010
ARE WE IN OR OUT?
Others try to draw a line to keep me out
But I draw a bigger circle to bring them in
For this is what “loving your neighbour” is all about
For under the fatherhood of God we are all kins
(C) Samuel Goh Kim Eng – 190110
http://MotivationInMotion.blogspot.com
Tue. 19th Jan. 2010.
Samuel Goh Kim Eng
January 31, 2010
WILL ALL COOKS BE BOOKED?
There will always be some books
Which not all people can freely look
Unlike the recipes for the kitchen cooks
Which can be modified and still get off the hook
(C) Samuel Goh Kim Eng – 290110
http://MotivationInMotion.blogspot.com
Fri. 29th Jan. 2010.
Samuel Goh Kim Eng
January 31, 2010
WHAT KIND OF LOTS DO WE WANT?
Let’s expose all worldwide evil plots
that cause human miseries quite alot
Let’s help to to remove all dark blots
To allow free blood flow without clots
(C) Samuel Goh Kim Eng – 300110
http://MotivationInMotion.blogspot.com
Sat. 30th Jan. 2010.
Samuel Goh Kim Eng
January 31, 2010
BIG FIGHT OVER SLIGHT FRIGHT?
When certain insecure people take fanatic fright
They’ll want some publications to be out of sight
Worried that some truths will put them into flight
Even though this will be to the peope’s great delight
(C) Samuel Goh Kim Eng – 300110
http://MotivationInMotion.blogspot.com
Sat. 30th Jan. 2010.
must i have a name?
January 31, 2010
wow. nice one.
Bigjoe
January 31, 2010
I refer to Art Harun’s speech at SABM ‘Believe it’ forum..
I of course always knew Malaysia is a secular country since I heard it from Tunku Abdul Rahman himself. But my curiosity is did Art Harun stop short of saying that Muslim Apostasy is also protected by law? Understandly at this juncture, saying something like that would drive the crazies into frenzy especially since its a huge part of the basis for opposing the Herald..
While this issue is important especially to a small group of people, its not by any means critical for the rest of us at this time. But my curiosity is highly peaked by Art Harun’s slight hinting.
Anonymous
January 31, 2010
Sorry dude, we had enough with your bullshits especially from you who thinks you are ******* good at everything.
Dont ever use that words, Rakyat when you are punishing someone for your own ego. Many of us has returned to BN, and more would do the same.
We simply think PR is bullshits, and lies. You think we do not know about the ‘balak’ things in Perak? and corruption in Selangor?
So much with transparency eh? that’s load of hogwash from your communist brain.
So much for not being racist? Look at you, and any PR with their racist Chauvinist Chinese of DAP.
Pretending you aren’t racist will not help you anymore.
So what is so big deal with waving Keris? it is just a tradition for god sake! what about if we disallowed the Chinese for their spears waving? and dragon dance?
Guess what will happens?
Dont put that high hopes of winning in the next PRU.
sash
January 31, 2010
Just read Rocky getting Datukship – Wow! All that brown nosing sure paid off.
robin hood
February 1, 2010
Sorry to be off topic. Totally forgot about that sabm thingy in ipoh this coming saturday. Any seat left?
Yes
Shakuntala
February 1, 2010
Credit to the Anonymous Writer….the inistence, the repetition is like a litany, haunting….no sparing of the failed human spirit.
One line in particular stands out, ….the last, where the writer says, the suffering of every human being is his suffering.
And lastly the confession.. that he has been responsible for the suffering…
We all have been responsible for the present impasse.
Hope springs eternal….we can collectively, as Malaysians all, bring in the change for a better Malaysia.
Anonymous
February 2, 2010
What kind of repetition you are referring to smart head?
Oh I forgot, whatever is done by your side is all GOOD, and RIGHTEOUS. while the others should just be grammatically errors. 🙂
and shits right?
Rhan
February 1, 2010
What was written by anonymous were exactly reflected in his name “Anonymous”…no name, no fact, no logic and no detail.
Anyone is welcome to join PR and leave as they deem fit. This is a free world, we provide the freedom to anyone to do anything within the boundaries of law. We don’t act like communist telling people not to do this and not to use word like rakyat and whatever.
Everyone has the prerogative to think and have opinion whether PR is bullshit, no transparency or chauvinist, as long as it is an opinion, we listen. Of course we would be glad if the opinion were substantiated with facts, in order for us to act on it.
No big deal waving Keris, please carry on doing it.
We don’t hope, we work and perform though with limited resources.
I shall cut short my reply the next round to save energy and bandwidth.
Anonymous
February 1, 2010
Really no big deal?
Then what is the fuss that DAP is making with it? go and ask your LKS, and LGE for god sake!
Really no facts and details?
You sure the supports is still on your side? you and your PR is pure bullshits lie, I have proofs of what PR did in Perak during Nizar’s tenureship.
Let us talk about Balak shall we? how much land do you get ? how much sand that you sell? you think we are stupid? If we cant be lied by UMNO and BN, we are not going to bow down to the likes of you.
Sheep with worlf skin is what DAP is. Full of pretense, with so called non-racist stance.
LGE is the Chairman of the board, he is free to choose anyone he likes. So much for transparency and credibility? sounds more like Communism to me.
Really open tender? not biased?
you sure?
Anonymous
February 1, 2010
You Harris is the pain in the ass for PR actually. Your ego to get rid of Zul, and others. Nice.
The small things that you have done now is stirring PKR into trouble. Let me ask you Harris, are you demented 6 years old kid or something?
Why not use your brain and go settle this quietly instead of making a fuss about it openly, and making PR a laughing stock for UMNO?
Is this the type of people who shout justice, and freedom ?
Is this the type of people who shout transparency?
Yeah right, go on with it.
At least UMNO is not hypocritical about their racist stand as compared to DAP!
shar101
February 2, 2010
Anons, anons everywhere .. and not a drop of .. wisdom.
Rhan
February 2, 2010
Anonymous @ small boy
“Really no big deal? Then what is the fuss that DAP is making with it? go and ask your LKS, and LGE for god sake!” – since when you all listen to LKS and LGE? You have to ask the rakyat whether it is a big deal, and as I said, be my guess to carry on waving the Keris.
“Really no facts and details?” – I am still waiting.
“You sure the supports is still on your side? you and your PR is pure bullshits lie, I have proofs of what PR did in Perak during Nizar’s tenureship.” – I am not sure, pray tell. Btw, we are looking forward a fresh election, but somebody blocks it. And as I say, we are still waiting for proof, how many times I have to repeat myself?
“Let us talk about Balak shall we? how much land do you get ? how much sand that you sell? you think we are stupid? If we cant be lied by UMNO and BN, we are not going to bow down to the likes of you.” – Why ask me? You are supposed to show it to us or show it to the media and MACC, or you don’t trust MACC as well?
“Sheep with worlf skin is what DAP is. Full of pretense, with so called non-racist stance.” – Thanks for sharing, I personally think DAP is doing well, of course there is no perfection, and I hope they would improve.
“LGE is the Chairman of the board, he is free to choose anyone he likes. So much for transparency and credibility? sounds more like Communism to me.” – If Chairman is not free to choose anyone he deem fit, then what is the role of Chairman? However, I do agree that lack of transparency and credibility sound very Communism, this is why we always says our government is actually commanded by a bunch of communist.
“Really open tender? not biased? you sure?” – Is this a question or an opinion? If it is a question, I don’t think you would agree with my reply. If it is an opinion, again, thanks for sharing.
“You Harris is the pain in the ass for PR actually. Your ego to get rid of Zul, and others. Nice. The small things that you have done now is stirring PKR into trouble. Let me ask you Harris, are you demented 6 years old kid or something?” – If PKR can’t even withstand this small thing and you expect them to be the next government?
“Why not use your brain and go settle this quietly instead of making a fuss about it openly, and making PR a laughing stock for UMNO? Is this the type of people who shout justice, and freedom ? Is this the type of people who shout transparency? Yeah right, go on with it.” – Hmmm, we should re-learn what is mean by justice, freedom and transparency, of course not according to your definition.
“At least UMNO is not hypocritical about their racist stand as compared to DAP!” – Are you kidding me?
Dominic Tan
February 2, 2010
Moving, heartfelt and inspiring. Kudos to the writer!
Homophobic
February 3, 2010
After reading all these, I think you can credit the writing to one such person – a psychopathic, identity-confused SOB, who desires everything but gets nothing (because he’s capable of nothing)…
Oh, isn’t that you, Harris?
An empty tin can make no noise, but a tin full of shit can roll on the ground hoping it will hit some rocks to make a sound..
F*** off with ‘anak bangsa Malaysia’, you disillusioned underachiever brats…
fizli
February 4, 2010
To Anonymous…well said, period !
Malay support seeker
February 5, 2010
Haris, Merdeka Center poll revealed that Zambry’s state-wide approval rating is 43 per cent and is drawn largely from the Malay
If we are to see reform in Malaysia, we must reach the Malays. How can we do that?
Malay support seeker
February 5, 2010
RPK is translating his articles into Bahasa Malaysia: How yet again they are trying to fabricate evidences against anwar (with BM translation). How about People’s Parliament?
TruthSeeker
February 6, 2010
“A politician thinks of the next election; a statesman, of the next generation.”
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“Where there is no vision, the people perish”.
(Proverbs 29:18)
Bro, what’s your Vision?
Rhan
February 7, 2010
Fizli,
The best part of your comment is that it is “short”. We always have great sympathies toward people that have “short” intelligent, “short” fact and “short” brain. Take this as our “short” compliment.
fizli
February 12, 2010
Rhan,
You hv shown me the mannerism of Anak bangsa M’sia.It was not at all brainy.Not for long then !
Carlos
February 11, 2010
Harris, think hard. Otherwise SABM will be nothing more than sale of t-shirts. It will not go beyond the spectrum of your blog visitor.